12 hours difference. 20 days away from hello.

Jan. 7 2013, what a fun way to start the NEW YEAR! Stephen went to Asia.
      3 weeks +Vietnam, Thailand and Japan
     
     Monday @ 4:00am the group flew out. Thank God they made it there safe and sound. so that day just didn't feel real at all. as if it was just a normal day kind of at the last minute before i pulled out of birchcroft to head to VA i met with my friend LAURA YON. it was so great to have her come to town from michigan. what a great friend she is to me. we found each other i target. i will never forget seeing her hold KiAH for the first time.

it was breathtakingly perfect. laura, kiah and i went to the dressing room so i could feed her and i handed kiah over to laura and she just cried. so i just cried. talk about good for BOTH of our hearts. gosh, laura is one of those friends who you don't talk to for months and then when you get together an hour turns into 5 too quickly. oh how i love you laura. http://2009.usdeaflympics.com/sports/athletes/laura-yon-carlsen/ check her out! after long talks, lots a tears over each other stories, a long walk to freedom park and then a sad good bye we finally caught up on what we have missed in each others lives over the last 7 months.
    so since then i have been at my parents house. i spend most of my time cleaning. and make green monster smoothies!
but tonight has been super special. my parent took kiah on a long adventure to martinsville for the past 3 hours and it has been amazing! everyday i have been able to run thanks to them and this evening i have been able to shower, dress, light some candles, roast some tasty chickpeas, get these thoughts out and SIT. REST. BREATH. ahhhh.

    oh jesus, we exalt your name high above the heavens. you reign. oh jesus. oh jesus. oh how i love you. i love your name. i love your presence. i read my old letters to you jesus and i long to be that desperate for you again. thank you so much for your grace. wow, so much grace flows from you heart on over for me that i never have to worry about being separated from you. i am your forever and you are mine forever. i thank you that fear has no place at the sound of your great name. come in closer my jesus. come in closer. take me a little deeper. i need you. ive been in a whirlwind becoming a mommy and i am excited for the season ahead.

   Today, it has been starting to feel real that he is so far away for so long.