weddings.mountains.crib

oh my goodness, is it already september?
   i feel like thanksgiving is gonna be here so soon, then christmas and then kiah will be 1 year old walking and talking and ....ok i need to slow down.
   on kiahs 3 month birthday we put her in her crib to sleep IN THE OTHER ROOM for the first time. i actually was totally ok with it because she has just grown right out of the bassinet that once seemed plenty big for her now is too little.
  LOL! sorry to get off track but i literally just laughed out loud. i am sitting in kiahs room on this rainy thursday morning while a Burmese bible study is taking place downstairs and kiah sleeps in her crib. i think she is having a bad dream but it is so hilarious because she just yelled out while she was sleeping REALLY LOUD but when right back to sleep. sorry, but i love it.
   anyways, but back to kiah in her crib. i love it because stephen and i can actually stop tip toeing around our bedroom at night and moving on or off the bed in slow motion to keep it from sqeeking. and we can listen to our little princess on the baby monitor. but before we could make it a routine, we took off to Asheville,nc for dinner at my favorite TUPELO HONEY and Liz and Caleb's wedding, then late that night to grandfather mountain with friends for labor day weekend. it was a perfectly planned out weekend right? well, it was different. different compared to life back before kiah.
before kiah lily, it was just stephen and i. at weddings, we socialized, danced to slow songs, reminisced about our wedding, ate fun food, danced with friends.  life is very different with little kiah. we stood in the back to keep kiah quiet during the ceremony instead of with our friends who we hadn't seen in a long time. during the cocktail hour before the reception i hid away in a back bathroom to feed kiah while everyone else mingled and caught up on life and took fun pictures together. stephen and i barely ate, barely danced, barely finished conversations with friends and mostly took care of kiah. honestly, as we left i was really sad. i had been looking forward to this wedding and seeing friends for so long. i had a pity party for about 15 minutes and then decided...while all of my heart
...she is more than worth it.
becoming a mom, u sacrifice lots of things. i realized i love her so much!!! she is and will always be worth anything i might not be able to do or have or enjoy. i love her just because she is mine and i am hers. i also realize, that is how it is with God. kiah doesn't even talk or tell me how great i am or doing things for me. but i love her just because she is mine. "i am my beloveds and he is mine"
   GOD IS LOVE
i am so thankful for stephen and all the help he gives me. i am thankful for the long runs i have been able to go on. i am thankful that my friend faith has moved just down the street from me. i am thankful that my friend morgan is coming to visit me and kiah in a few weekends. i am thankful for all the people who have provided so many things that we have needed for kiah. i am thankful for the kids in the neighborhood being understanding about how much time and energy it takes to take care of a baby.

we have a lot going on these days. tomorrow, we head to high point, nc for corbin and sarahs wedding!!!! we will be there all weekend and then monday we will have our first GIRLS NIGHT starting back up again. then i am having a baby shower for one of our friends in the neighborhood who is having a baby boy any day now. so exciting! along with my other beautiful friend JESSICA JONES who is having her baby girl any day now!!! i am so ready to see and hold a newborn again!