busy.

life has been busy. a blur almost. kiah keeps me on call 24-7 and i am learning things about her all the time. for example, just about 10 seconds ago i laid her down in the bassinet wide awake and crying just so i could step away and go to the bathroom. surprise surprise, i come back and she is quiet an happy!!! laying her there + stepping away= a totally content baby chillin. wow, i wish i had tried this sooner. little did i know, she just didn't want to be held. i guess kiah needs alone time just as much as me. i think she is a lot more like me than i can imagine. i realized this morning when she was crying, while i was ready to get out of the apartment and go to abby's birthday brunch, that kiah was JUST AS READY to get out too. she wasn't crying because she didn't want to go. i believe she was crying because she was just as ready to get out as i was.
she was quiet as soon as stephen and i stepped outside and got into the car.
    stephen is amazing. he wins the best father in the world award.
there have been lots of fun things going on lately and having a baby makes it so difficult to actually go out and be with other people out in public. so many things run through your mind. what if she is hungry, can i nurse her in what i am wearing, what is she cries and i can not sooth her, if i wake her up to go in the car seat will she ever go back to sleep, if i feed her before i go will it put her to sleep or energize her up...and so on and so forth. without stephen and his confidence as a dad, i would be a wreck. he has helped me in the night times, helped me in the day times, helped me in the quite times and helped me in the loud times, helped me in the hungry times and and helped me in the tired times. he is just amazing.
he wanted me to be able to go to abby's birthday dinner on thursday at kickstand but i was nervous to try and take kiah out to a party. he convinced me it would be great and that he would be there to help me. we went and it was all great. a lot of friends were able to see kiah and i for the first time since having her so that was fun. i was able to finally be out and around people again. then, when we all screamed surprise to abby kiah woke up and stephen took her outside to rock her while i was able to spend a little bit of time with my friends again. i was able to get some quality time in, while it actually felt like a date with stephen because we were actually dressed up out somewhere together. i got a burger and fries to-go and stephen got tacos-to-go from loco lime next door and we went home. now-a-days eating dinner is much more complicated. we keep finding ourselves in situations like, when the food is actually hot and ready kiah needs to be fed so then i will go feed her up stairs and stephen will bring the plates of food up to where i am, and then i will make him eat without me because you never know how long its gonna take her to eat and be burped and hopefully put to sleep. then by the time i finish with her, i hand her to him and then i try to reheat my food and eat as fast as i can before something else happens. THANK YOU GOD FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BROUGHT US MEALS!!! we would be eating cereal every night if it weren't for people bringing dinner to us.
      we are defiantly getting a hang on it all though.
so this morning, after i fed her at 5:30 and got her back in bed by 6, i went and made a pot of coffee, got a shower and had QUITE TIME. i love those times in the morning. then rode with stephen and kiah to the TERRACE CAFE- my new favorite breakfast place- i was able to have brunch with the girls while stephen took kiah out. it was so nice of him!!!
see, he is just the best
charlotte eagles game tonight; i think...